It is extraordinary, how a thing can simply not exist –
never have existed – and then suddenly be there.
I know the imagination is fed by many springs, and its
outflow prompted by the oddest conjunctions of events. A myriad tiny elements come together, and suddenly
a story springs from the ground and runs away downhill, with characters and scenarios
bubbling forth, alive and vivid in the sun.
In the absence of any one of those elements, perhaps the story would
never well up at all; perhaps it would stay buried in one’s mind, deep in the underground
water table of thought.
But as it is, the elements do conjoin, and there it is; and
it feels as though this one thing has come into being from nothing. All other matter comes from previous states
of matter. Only the
imagination seems to come out of nowhere and no-thing, the goddess Athena springing fully
armed and extremely lively from the forehead of Zeus.
I have been writing steadily for the last ten days. Eleven days ago, Anna Maple, Thorn Reynolds and
Carlton Truro did not exist, and nor did Jasper Jarvis, who is what I believe
is referred-to as the principal antagonist.
They had no past and no future, their fears and hopes did not exist, nor
their courage, nor their frustrations and losses; and Anna had never tucked her
amulet inside her collar, and Thorn had never hated Vegas, or had two of his
ribs cracked by a scrupulously thuggish lab technician...
In a way it’s rather irritating. I was halfway through two stories that had
been going well, when the Muse took a vacation.
She didn’t like the stressed-out Imogen who was house-share-hunting and
trying to move in a hurry. She left me painfully aware that if I went on with those two stories I would be forcing
things that just weren’t ready to grow any more at the moment.
Then out of nowhere the Muse comes back, finds me sitting on a number 237 bus, and presents me
with this. She’s like a big kid (I hope
she won’t be offended with me for saying so!); she’s more interested in the new
story, so that’s the one I have to write.
She teases me with the idea that if I give this some attention, she’ll
help me along with “Midnight in the Café Tana” as well - in a while, once this
new story is in good shape. But “in good
shape” may mean “first draft completed”.
Oh well, we’ll see.
In the meantime, I can see that I’m going to get fond of bottled-up, impulsive
Anna and bloody-minded Thorn. But I feel
already as if I have known them for years, yet they have existed for less than
a fortnight. It’s just so weird.