I have been off work for a week with 'flu. I went back on Tuesday, and haven't exactly been enjoying it as I still feel mortally washed-out and rubbery-legged. But I'm terribly behind on all my stuff, just as my job starts to get into the busy time of year. So I am putting my head down and getting on with it. By five pm today I felt as though my frontal lobes had been replaced with large pieces of carefully folded felt. CLRDUGGG UGH UGH... >staggers across Kew Green in the dusk like a lonely zombie<
I crept home, made an easy supper, and have spent the evening listening to music and chatting to TC on the 'phone. TC is stressed, and I don't think I was brain-equipped enough to be much help. Last night I watched two ballet dvds both of which I've seen a dozen times before - Alina Cojocaru being divine in "Sleeping Beauty", Ed Watson being tormented and sexy in "Mayerling". I hadn't the spirit even to watch a movie with dialogue - the need to disengage my brain is far too great for that. The only other thing I do of an evening is muck about a bit on Tumblr, licking my lips over a bit of hunk-fetishisin' photo-bloggin' harmless sexist fun. Very sad, you are becoming, Ims.
Last night I had another of those weird dreams. If the real-life people one dreamed about really did connect with one in those dreams, they'd be left feeling pretty freaked out of a morning, sometimes. This one certainly startled me a bit, though it has since set me to thinking "This has the makings of a short story...".
I dreamed I was one of a crowd of people defending a tower house – like a
Pictish castle or something in the Mani – from assault. Jeremy Renner was
among the attackers and he slung a stone at me with a slingshot, but
bizarrely it looped right past me, quite slowly, and I managed to catch
it. I fell down in surprise and one of the other defenders thought I’d
been hit and raised up a scream for vengeance. I sat up to show him I
was unhurt and looked over the parapet to mock at Mr Renner - you know the
routine, “Nah-nah-nahnahnah, you can’t hit me with your shitty sling,
California boy!” - but when he saw me looking down at him, alive and
uninjured, he looked incredibly happy and relieved; and I realised he
hadn’t ever intended to hurt me at all.
So what the hell does that mean?
And what will I dream tonight, I wonder?!